Before it was birthed into an actual offering to community, I held Inner Rhythm in my heart for 10 years, as an idea, as a passionate seed longing to break free from it’s shell made of the energies of gestation, of maturing, of soul-need, and of fear. Dance is my life. Dance gives me life. I was so afraid to bring something so intimate to my soul out into the world. Eventually, the pain of not bringing it out became bigger than the fear.
In July of 2010, I walked into the Santa Cruz Chi Center, our first home, and booked a date to start- it would be a Thursday, the Fall Equinox. Seemed like a good day to start.
I had spent a lot of those 10 years beating myself up and judging myself harshly for not starting. This was a deeply painful process. And sometime in that first year, I realized that I was actually not ready. I realized I was not ready because I had not had a mature enough relationship with my own ego to be able to hold a container in a high integrity way. I was not perfect. I’m not perfect now. I am learning a lot. In my life now, there is this thing. This thing that calls me. This thing that invites; and demands that I continue to source deeply, feel fully, show up vulnerably, and dance myself into the best person I can be.
Love all around,
If you could express yourself fully authentically, with total freedom, what would that look like? On the dance floor, and in the daily dance?
We will have a collaborative altar and everyone is invited to bring a sacred item to adorn it – perhaps something that signifies the importance of dance in your life. We will also have candles to light, to hold the light, for our intentions and prayers as we enter into the darker part of the year.